Man am I bad at this blogging thing..lol..I really should keep up with it because I find when I do I am better off.

So it's been a rough few weeks. My emotions have been up and down, and sad to say, so has my weight. But, I am now back on plan and ready to lose the rest of this weight for good. In a few short weeks I will be going to vacation in Florida and will need to be IN shorts. EEKKK!! If that's not motivation I dont know what is. I am so tired of how I look, and how I feel about how I look that I need to do this.

Im going to try to keep up here, to keep myself accountable so I can finish this mission!

I wish I could say that the reason I havent blogged was because I was doing so well that I had nothing to report but some weight loss...nope...that's not the case, in fact, it is the exact opposite. I have had a rough 2 days and am feeling pretty rotten about it. I dont know why I am struggling, but I am, and it doesnt feel good. I have to remember and remind myself how much better I feel when I am on plan and losing weight. I'm going to work my hardest to do that today and I am going to start by getting in some exercise...I have to stop making excuses and just do this. I have 15 more pounds to go, THEN I can eat treats and enjoy off plan foods on occasion. Now is not the time for that!

Temptation

I work in a Mexican restaurant..temptation is all over the place. Up until very recently I had a lot of trouble staying away from "bad" foods, especially the chips and salsa that are readily available. Lately however I have found that losing weight is more important than a few chips. I never thought I'd get to this place. I finally realized that if I want to feel good about myself physically I HAVE to make changes, plain and simple. So now, before work, I have a big meal and then I sip on diet soda while I am there. I am happy to say I have been rewarded by staying away from the junk and hit another new low this morning...only by a few ounces, but still..it's something!

Yesterdays Accountability
B: eggs with sour cream, coffee w/ creamer
L: chicken ceaser salad
D: chicken w/ alfredo sauce
s: cottage cheese, tea w/ HWC

Weight: 124.4

New mini goal

I realized this morning as I stepped on the scale that I am 3 pounds from a 35 pound weight loss- that's all! Just 3 pounds!! So I decided to set a new mini goal to hopefully help motivate me to keep moving forward. Kyle will be 4 months old (where has the time gone!!)on the 12th. I'd LOVE to say I've lost 35 pounds in 4 months, that means almost 9 pounds a month, which averages out to be about 2 pounds a week. That, in my opinion, is perfect weight loss, and it would put me at my goal weight in less than 2 months! So I am recommitting myself today to lose those 3 pounds by the 12th. I know I can do it! Plus, my mother is coming to visit on the 18th so I know my diet is going to suffer a bit while she is here. I am ok with that though. If I hold strong until then I will allow a few days off plan. So today I am going to be squeeky clean AND I am going to work out. Time to get moving!

Yesterdays Accountability
B: cream cheese omelet, coffee w/ creamer
L: chicken ceaser salad
s: tea w/ HWC
D: steak, creamed spinach
s: cottage cheese

Weight: 125

Not much to report here. Plugging along. I need to get back on the exercise wagon BAD but it is so hard with this gloomy weather and with the little one kind off from sleep training. I'll get back there...hopefully sooner than later

Yesterdays Accountability
B: 2 eggs fried in butter w/ a sprinkle of cheese, coffee w/ HWC
L: pork, coleslaw
s: cottage cheese, tea w/ HWC
D: chicken w/ alfedo and a bit of cheese

Weight: 125

Ok, Ok....

So I need to stop my complaining about my weight loss. Today I hit a new post pregnancy low at 124.6 pounds! Yay! I was very excited. It seems that sticking to plan is paying off, even if this is slow moving. I mean, I really can't complain, I've lost over 30 pounds in under 4 months and only have 15 pounds to go, things are bound to slow down. I'm going to keep on working and hopefully the scale will continue to move in the right direction.

Yesterday's Accountability
B: eggs fried in butter, coffee w/ HWC
L: tuna w/ mayo, small salad w/ ranch
s: tea w/ HWC
D: chicken w/ alfredo sauce and a bit of cheese

Beyond Frustration

After hitting a new low yesterday I was so excited to see new numbers, to start making real progress with my weight loss. I was so excited that I managed to not even sneak a single chip at work last night in anticipation of seeing another new number on the scale. Well what happened? My weight was UP 1.2 pounds this morning. WTF? I dont know what I am going to do but I can't keep eating this way without seeing results. I'm going to try to cut back on cheese for a few days and see if it helps, if it doesnt I am going to have to rethink this LC way of eating

Yesterdays Accountability:
B: scrambled eggs w/ cheese and sour cream, 1 cup coffee w/ HWC
L: grilled chicken salad w/ cucumbers, cheese and ranch
D: pork, sourkraut
s: string cheese, tea with HWC

Weight: 126.2